Sunday, January 22, 2017

Alcohol Free....Take Two

As I mentioned a few weeks ago in this post Alcohol Free I made a major mistake on the first Saturday of 2017 and drank WAY TOO MUCH WINE.  So much that three girlfriends had to put me in a cab and bring me home.  I got sick in the cab and all over our driveway and in our bedroom.  I was charged a $250 cab cleaning fee, still need to scrub the driveway again and had to throw out a rug in our bedroom.  What an embarrassing mess!  After that night I wrote the above post stating that I was going Alcohol Free for awhile.

Well that lasted about 5 days.  I had a conference for work in Cancun on Thursday.  The conference is short and there is a lot of free time to hang around the pool and drink.  The first day I abstained from drinking at the pool but asked D if he would mind me having a cocktail at the welcoming cocktail reception that evening.  He said that the decision was mine to make and that he wasn't going to tell me what to do.  So I decided to have one drink at the cocktail reception and one drink with dinner.  I was controlled and moderated well and didn't feel the urge to drink more.  We ended up going to bed early and it was great to wake up on vacation not hungover!  On day two I drank a bit more than two drinks and by day three I drank too much and don't remember going to bed. That is a problem.  My drinking always escalates. On day four I was kind of hungover and didn't drink very much.  After Cancun we traveled back to the US and had family in Islamorada in the Keys so we drove there to stay with them for two nights.  On the first night we got in late and only met them out for a bite to eat and a couple of drinks.  But Day two is where it went bad.  Real bad. We went on the boat during the day.  D bought me Smirnoff ices and a few other drinks like that for the boat.  Everyone started drinking but I was waiting to start so I could be more in control and not have an issue.  We stopped for lunch and I decided to order a two drinks there.  Then we got back on the boat and the drinking continued for me.  Then we stopped at another bar and I could feel myself picking up the pace and drinking quickly.  If I were normal this should have triggered something in my head to tell me to slow down and to order a water, but it didn't.  I continued drinking.  When we got back to the house and off the boat we all got showered up and ready to go to dinner.  As we were getting ready we opened a bottle of wine and I was definitely drinking it quickly.  I was embarrassed by how much I was drinking so I kept switching my glass with other peoples so it would look like they were drinking as much too.  Isn't that sick?  In my opinion, if you are embarrassed by the amount you are drinking you have an alcohol problem.

It has been 5 days since my last drink.  I have been very busy with both of my jobs and really haven't had the opportunity for a drink, so that has made it much easier.  But I plan to write about my journey so I keep myself in check and accountable.

Wish me luck!

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