Monday, January 23, 2017
Sober Day 6...First Craving
Its 7:30pm. Its Monday evening. I had a 12 hour day. Just got home. Prepping dinner and usually I would have a glass of wine. Typically I would drink the first glass very quickly and then have 1 or 2 more through out the night. However I am no longer doing that and I am feeling anxious. So I poured a grapefruit flavored club soda into a wine glass and I am pretending that is my "relaxing cocktail". I know this will pass. I wonder how much of it is just habit. Either way I know I am strong enough to break the cycle. It helps to journal it out here. I will eat my dinner and stay busy for the rest of the night and then get a great nights sleep. I have been working out and meditating daily. I am trying to do all things to naturally calm myself and relax without alcohol. I think I liked the alcohol at the end of the work day because it signaled to me that the hard work was over for the day and I could relax. I guess I need a new habit or routine to tell my brain that it can chill a bit til the morning. This too shall pass!